Peut-être même que ce que j’appelais sa sévérité, quand il m’envoyait me coucher, méritait moins ce nom que celle de ma mère ou ma grand’mère, car sa nature, plus différente en certains points de la mienne que n’était la leur, n’avait probablement pas deviné jusqu’ici combien j’étais malheureux tous les soirs, ce que ma mère et ma grand’mère savaient bien; mais elles m’aimaient assez pour ne pas consentir à m’épargner de la souffrance, elles voulaient m’apprendre à la dominer afin de diminuer ma sensibilité nerveuse et fortifier ma volonté. →
And perhaps even what I called his strictness, when he sent me off to bed, deserved that title less, really, than my mother's or grandmother's attitude, for his nature, which in some respects differed more than theirs from my own, had probably prevented him from guessing, until then, how wretched I was every evening, a thing which my mother and grandmother knew well; but they loved me enough to be unwilling to spare me that suffering, which they hoped to teach me to overcome, so as to reduce my nervous sensibility and to strengthen my will. As for my father, whose affection for me was of another kind, I doubt if he would have shewn so much courage, for as soon as he had grasped the fact that I was unhappy he had said to my mother: "Go and comfort him."